So here goes, my reattempt at engaging my brain into something less monotonous than my own current life. Loz, think!
If I were to publish this to a social networking site or expecting anybody to read this then I would probably write what the public wanted; an insight into the current economic crisis, my favourite celebrity crush yadayadah. Instead I'll use this for my own catharsis.
I, Laura Jean Fiddes, personally have a great life. I've got a good job, good friends, a lovely home and people who love me. So why can't I be happy? Why am I screaming, punching pillows, having urges to push children over constantly? Well my dad has cancer, a horrible issue to talk about and one that I'm likely to blame for anything that goes wrong in my life. I know that there are resolute selfish feelings that go with this, which I feel constantly guilty for but what do you do when you're stuck in the same place, in somewhere that you don't want to be. What if you're stuck as a person that you don't want to be? You stay because you love them and you don't want them to feel like you don't. So my important question to the medium of the internet is how can you be happy if you're trapped? And how can you stop feeling trapped and make yourself happy?
There is no resolution to this blog, there is no point to this blog entry, but if anybody reads this that has been or is going through the feelings that I'm going through then maybe my inane ramblings may help but probably not.
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